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Wednesday
May232012

i am enough from Kristin Zecchinelli

i catch a glimpse
a flash if pink
something wild this way comes.

who is that girl?
what is her story?

she is a momma,
fierce and loving.

she is a wife,
warrior and steadfast.

she is a woman,
heavy breasts and sagging belly. birthed 3 people into this world

she is an artist
(she.is.)

she is the life of the party
mixes one hell of a long island iced tea

she is a little girl
insecure, afraid, bruised, good, wanting, trying, fixing

she is kristi, spidey, bubbles, momma, kristin,
mother lover friend homemaker hardworker quilter cook nurturer giver
kisser of boo-boos, maker of sheet forts
dreamer wisher believer
flawed (ever so)
but learning growing accepting all of these incarnations, all of these pieces of she.
knowing that even on her worst of days,
she is worthy.
she is enough.
she is... me.

...........

 Kristin Zecchinelli is a mother wife artist living on the coast of Maine.  You can find her writing for Shutter Sisters and Paper Coterie,  or musing about her everyday on her personal blog, Maine Momma. Kristin is co-founder of NOW YOU Workshops alongside fellow Shutter Sister and friend Meredith Winn. There they share their passion to give women back control on how they see themselves right now, through the process of self-portraiture.

Thursday
May172012

visual voices on being enough

1. All lined up, 2. Birthday girl, 3. you are enough., 4. 165:365 {21:52}, 5. tear, 6. 6.365 (notes to myself), 7. I Am Talented, 8. 18/52 A Conscious Choice, 9. Untitled, 10. 98/365 :: note to self, 11. you., 12. Can you handle more of me?

I am so deeply appreciative to Meredith for helping us reopen the flow of goodness that is this Self-Kindness Collaborative. I am delighted to be filling up the I Am Enough calendar with women who are eager to share their stories here. You too are invited. Did you know that? This is your space. This is my space. This is OUR space. If you would like a spot (we are starting to post each Thursday now) please let me know and I can give you more info and a date. It would be an honor to have you here.

And/or perhaps images speak louder than words when it comes to your story? You don't have to convince me of the power of photography. Be sure to join our Flickr group or if you're on Instagram, use the tag #Iamenough so we can find one another.

However you want to join our chorus, your voice is welcome. We are all in this together. And it's so much better that way.

Thank you to the ladies (featured above) who shared their images with us in our Flickr pool.

Thursday
May102012

i am enough from meredith winn

 

this girl, she is reflections in windows.

getting lost then being found.

what is normal is awkwardness, the sometimes bitterness.

the habit that returns in love.

 

this girl, she is holding hands on the coast of maine.

nuzzling beards, undressing insecurity, devouring artistry.

sometimes ragged. sometimes hollow-eyed.

she is acceptance of ordinary.

 

this girl, she is climbing trees.

she is laughter believing in love again

after years of being nowhere.

 

this girl, she is

returning

awakening

quickening.

 

this girl, she is groovy music.

barefoot in prose.

forever cultivating grace.

 

this girl, she is simply returning to who she always was but once forgotten, relieved to be awake if for nothing else but the fluttering of heartbeats.

 

***

 

I am enough.

Thoughts become things.

 

I am enough now. Although, there was a time when I didn't believe it.

Not wholeheartedly at least. Sure, I said it aloud as if to coax myself into believing the words that fell from my mouth like loose teeth. I was a little girl for a long time, lost in my mind, wanting to be grown up but not quite sure I got the same instruction manual as everyone else.

 

I remember when Tracey opened this space for words, and all the women and strengths that poured through here... I read each one wondering why my own words weren't coming.

 

Be gentle with yourself.

 

I was looking at my light. I was pining for it, off in the distance I could see it. But I had not stepped into my light yet.

 

I am enough.

I learned it through my camera lens.

Photography taught me to see myself.

 

I believe it now. From the soles of my feet to the greying hairs on my head. And whether it comes from fires that we walk through or if it arrives with age or circumstance or positive reinforcements shouting their love... I am enough.

 

Right here. Right now.

I am enough.

 

This shyness. This struggle with voice. This motherloss. This grief...

I am enough.

This co-parenting, this blended family, this newness.... I am enough.

This passion, this career, this vision I see... I am enough.

 

I am.

 

***

 

Meredith Winn weaves stories from truth and optical illusions from images. She is a freelance writer and photographer living in New England. Meredith co-founded NOW YOU Workshops alongside fellow Shutter Sister Kristin Zechinelli. Together they share a passion to give women back the control in the battle of self-image. Through the process of self portraiture, we come away with images to remind us the beauty of seeing... and being seen. Summer session for NOW YOU :: The Beginning 6 week e-course opens June 1. It's Kristin and Meredith's hope that by participating in the Now You Workshops, you will explore who you are in this moment, who you once were… and who you are on the verge of becoming. As women, we are all these pieces of self. NOW is the time to embrace it.

Tuesday
Sep062011

I am enough from Merideth Mehlberg

My 3 year-old LOVES getting her face painted.

Everywhere we go where face painting is offered, she is first in line. Every time, she asks for the same images to be inked on her face:  Thomas the Tank Engine and James the Red Engine (my daughter adores trains).

On a recent visit to Happy Hollow, a kids’ amusement park in San Jose, she had her entire face painted in a rainbow design. By the time she went down for her nap, the colors had melted over her face into this eerie mask. It was pretty creepy looking, but she loved it….

….until it was time to take it off.

That night in the bathtub was miserable for both of us – cleaning the paint around the creases of her eyes and nose was an experience neither of us wishes to repeat.

But that painful experience hasn’t dissuaded her enthusiasm, so last week I bought some paints so we could do it ourselves.

That same day, we went to the park for a sunny summer picnic. After lunch, I took out the paints and my daughter sat down and eagerly presented her face to me. As normal, she asked for Thomas and James. 

Why am I telling you this?

Because I am NOT an artist…and painting these trains is not like painting a ladybug or a rainbow. It’s a whole other ball game. It requires details and a steadiness of hand that I do not have. And, the set of paints I bought came with this crummy brush that doesn’t allow you to make fine brush strokes, so painting a face with it is a messy, approximate art. 

As I sat there with brush poised, trying to figure out how to paint these trains and not embarrass my daughter as she runs around the playground with my handiwork drawn on her face, a small group of girls started to gather.

“Are you a face painter?” they asked hopefully.

My heart ached for them.

 “No, I’m just a mom painting my daughter’s face,” I said, a bit sheepishly.

Disappointed, they started to disband…except for one little cutie, who watched, enraptured, as I created Thomas on my little girl’s cheek.

As I painted, I kept thinking inside my head, “Oh, I am doing such a bad job. I need to start over. How can I do this?  I don’t know what I am doing.” And yet, my daughter sat there looking at me with a grin on her face. She was SO excited. 

In that moment, I realized that I AM a face painter.


My daughter doesn’t care whether or not Thomas looks as he does on her toys and books. She is delighted that her mommy is spending time with her, doing something she loves.

What a wonderful gift she gave me in that moment: 

The realization that I am enough.

Just as I am.

Whether I think I’m good at something or not. The very act that I show up and am myself is enough.

Enough for my daughter.

Enough for me. 

Enough for the world.

How I can remember this when the going gets tough?

How can you?

I would love to hear your comments.

...........

About Merideth Mehlberg

Merideth Mehlberg is a San Francisco Bay Area-based Career Strategist, Life Coach, writer, wife, dog lover and mom to two active toddlers. In her paid career, she dances between expert career advice and compassionate curiosity to help professionals transform their work from blah to bliss. As a former cubicle dweller, she feels strongly called to assist those who want more from their career than just a paycheck, regardless of whether that means a small or large-scale change. She’s constantly balancing the competing demands of maintaining a creative, successful career and a healthy, happy family, stumbling along taking “imperfect action” as she likes to call it. You can read Merideth’s part-confessional, part-inspirational blog about living abundantly and working authentically at: www.meridethmehlberg.com/blog

 

 

 

Tuesday
Aug232011

I am enough from Jane Hinchliffe

 

The words - ‘I am enough’, resonate deeply for me.  My moment of deep realisation came to me in a flash of insight, whilst meditating.  I was so moved, that I drew an artwork poster  for others to download as a daily reminder. 

Sometimes however, I forget this simple truth - getting wrapped up in day-to-day life with its pressures, constraints and demands.  It is at these times that I have a sense that I am treating myself disrespectfully and without compassion.  What was the crime?  Usually it is the ‘perfectionist’ part of me that feels let down by my human frailties.  Too many plates spinning at once and perhaps one or two tumbling and ultimately smashing.  I scold myself inwardly for being far short of ‘perfect’ yet again...  Then later, I remember, I am enough... I glimpse the beauty of my imperfections, my infallibilities and I cringe at the harshness and ferocity of my attack.

I believe that we were all created from love by God (or Spirit, the Divine, Universal Lifeforce etc).  That whenever we disparage ourselves (or others), we separate from our Source.  In doing so, we move away from our true origin - the all-knowing, all-loving peace and love which floods our core if only we embrace it. 

There is so much pressure to conform to 21st century ideals for beauty, material wealth, achievement etc., that we have lost perspective of this ancient wisdom that we were all born with.  We are all perfect in our Creator’s eyes.  We just forget sometimes....

So, as I sit here, weaving these words together, I have numerous clanging bells vying for my attention - laundry to wash, a house to clean, artwork to complete, a dog to walk and so on...  I can choose how I want to respond to my constant ‘to do’ list with fear, angst and ferocious determination for a ‘clear desk’ or I can say softly, lovingly, tenderly...  it’s okay, I  am loved just as I am.... 

For now, my focus is to savour the dappled sun glittering through the leaf-laden trees, the bird silently moving across the lush, green lawn, the distant hum of bees, a light breeze caressing my cheek, children playing, and my steady breath. 

I hear,

I smile,

and...

I know...

I am enough... says my beating heart;

I am enough.... says my forty-something body;

and finally,

I am enough... I say...

 ...........

About Jane Hinchliffe

Jane Hinchliffe is an Artist and Self-Discovery Coach who lives with her family in a small village in the Yorkshire Dales, UK.  She enjoys dancing to loud music with her boys around the kitchen table, taking copious photos of ‘the great outdoors’ whilst on dog walks and reading in bed.  Jane is committed to helping women who are interested in personal transformation.  Jane can be found at www.janehinchliffe.com and her blog is named Blank Canvas Waiting

Artwork featured above titled Loved by Jane Hinchliffe.

For a free download of Jane's beautiful art poster, I am Enough, click HERE!